Been ignoring the blog

Can't believe it's been over a month since I blogged. Not much has really happened as far as comedy goes. Did 30 minutes last night at a jiu jitsu studio in Vista. I brought up a set list, mostly because I wanted to do a different set than I did a few weeks ago at the Madhouse where I did 25 minutes. There was a girl that went to that show and she came to this one as well. I more wanted to challenge myself. Not all of it was great, but I'd say out of the 55 minutes, I know I have a really solid 30 minutes. The new girl is fun, but she drinks nearly as much as me so I know for the best would be to not get too serious with her. Who knows I'm having fun for now. New Year's Day was horrible and as my friend described it, my relationship bottom with the ex. She called me a left a vm where she was crying at the end. I was with the new girl so didn't immediately call her back. Once I did she basically told me she didn't know where she was. I got wasted and ended up going to her house. She of course wasn't there, so I attempted to find a way in. Stupid drunk. I went in the backdoor, and slept in there. The next morning, I left rose medals on the bed. Why? Who knows, I'm an idiot sometimes. Anyways, I spoke to her in the morning and she still didn't know where she was. I told her I was at her house to which she hung up and ignored me for the rest of the day. I called her on the work phone and she picked up. I was extremely pissed, and knew at that point I wanted nothing to do with her. I had been doing well, but for some reason on Friday I got wasted and walked over to her home. Luckily she has moved. I don't want to know where she moved or hope I never contact her again. I am worried about my drinking and whether I ever fall in love again. I wish I could be happy, but I don't see a future, who knows. Guess there was a fight at the Store last night. Makes sense. Things have been tense around there recently. Not sure why, but one of the manager has been a bigger dick lately. Don't know what really happened by, guess it was about 25 people involved. I'm glad I wasn't there as there would be no way I'd fight anyone. Heard they cancelled the show after that. I have been writing and getting some new ideas this week so that's uplifting. I'm gonna keep plugging away and trying to get happier. Parents are coming to visit in March and I'm going to plan to put my best foot forward for that week.