contest ppl

July 25
judge: billy bonnell sent
1. damien pruitt
2. pat puccini
3. tommy broome
4. joe charles
5. paul herrmann
6. erik martin
7. chris dalberg
8. jon schaeffer

Almost giving up

So little happening. Really been ignoring the blog, but haven't really peformed in awhile. Just been doing Winston's, but not even doing a set. I think my birthday show, and small turnout somewhat screwed with my head. That and meeting the girl. My focus is totally directed toward her. Broke down and said I loved her, and that didn't turn out well. She didn't say it back and I got emotional as I tend to do on occasional. It takes a lot to bum me out, but when I like someone I really like them. It's been almost 5 years since I really put my mind into someone. We worked things out, I think. I'm not completely sure if she's ready to love or be loved. Who knows if I am. I'm not really in the best part of my life. Stuck in a dead end job, and not focusing enough attention on comedy. I did write some stuff the other day, and have been thinking about new jokes and ideas, but just haven't performed. The Comedy Store doesn't have an open mic on Sundays anymore, and Blarney is too far and late now. So that basically just leaves Mondays and Fridays at Winston's. And the crowds haven't been really strong enough to deserve my hard work to bust out a set. I don't think it's because the girl is there, I just don't have the desire to perform. I actually was asked to do a few shows at the end of the month and the beginning of next. I need to start redirecting my focus away from the girl and back to comedy. I just need to find myself. I'm really getting scared this comedy thing is just a hobby and not a life choice. I find myself getting more and more frustrated at home depot. And literally want nothing more than to get fired. I'm leaving early, coming in late, calling out. Just plain miserable there, basically every second. I do enjoy spending time with the girl, but always in the back of my mind I'm wondering what I should be doing with my life. I'm 28 and I'm far from being an adult. I just need to get my life together, but I just don't know what the entails, or what I can do to get there. Radio, tv, newspapers, are all almost a thing of the past. I know I was born to entertain, but how am I going to figure out a way to make that my career?