The weekend standard shows.

Had Winston's Friday, decent crowd considering Christmas Eve. There was 15 or so comics. We started a little later than usual so everyone got to performed for at least a small crowd. My set went pretty ok. I actually went longer than I wanted which is something I never do. It's not a big deal, it's a cool thing. I used to struggle to stay on stage, but now I want to keep going. I have some new jokes that I enjoy and rotating that with the old ones is keeping things fun. The headliner was brought in by the dude that's leaving. He was nice and all but the fact he is a touring comedian surprises me. It goes to show it's so important to be friendly to people, cause you never know who will make it big. He is touring with a guy that's been on comedy central and has some big credits. I was under the impression we weren't paying him, as it was a small show and I didn't want to do the show for free. Well I get a call from the dude asking where the headliners money was. I didn't call him back nor was I gonna deal with that. I guess he had a text war with the guy I run the show with who was in D.C. with his family on XMas eve noless. I guess they had words and in the end the dude deleted the other from facebook. Ohhhh so badass. I guess the guy I run the show with called the headliner and agreed to pay him. Think it's kind of stupid but whatever, it was only $100.

Did the comedy store on sunday. There was a decent amount of people there, but it had the winston's vibe as they were mostly all there for one person. I got up there told a few jokes that were meh. I then told a newer joke that hit then heard people chatting. I engaged with them a bit, then before I even peaked up the light was on. I rambled out a final joke, and then the light was basically flashing. I got off, somewhat surprised how quickly 3 minutes goes by. After that we headed over to the Blarney Stone. There was a good amount of people. I went up 4th or so. Had a good combo of jokes and chatting, think it went decent. Had a guy come talk to me after saying how he enjoys watching me, and I'm somewhat a "Blarney Stone Legend." It was cool and weird, but always feels good to get recognized for doing well.

Poker you'll be the death of me. Finally had a good day. Woke up at 2 am on Xmas and started playing some tournaments, won 2 of them, and cashed in another for a $1200 profit. Well I found a way to donate all the money back last night playing cash games. I've come to the realization that I gamble too much online with cash games, and I will always a losing player. I don't trust the sites, and get so unlucky that I make calls more than I would live as I can't imagine it's happening to me again. Last night I got pretty screwed in a few huge pots, but I possibly may have overplayed my hands. But I did lose with aa to kk at least 3 times, and lost with aces a lot. I'm just going to play tournaments until I lose this final $500 and won't play again until March.

God damn poker

So rediculous how bad I'm running lately. It's so insane. I get coolered nonstop, and whenever I actually have anything no one else does. Played tourney's during the day, lost about $100. Couldn't sleep so player about 1200 hands in 3 hours only to lose another $400. I officially can not trust that site. I won 1 of 4 flips, and the only one I won was for a small pot. I'm down probably $3000 in the past couple months. I've never gone through a downswing like this. I have the next 5 days off, and have $400 more dollars to lose. Once that's gone I can't play until March. It's so depressing it sucks the life out of me. I didn't drink last night for the first time in a long time. I didn't sleep at all. Went to sleep maybe at 4:30 but woke up every ten minutes before my alarm went off at 5:30. I did sleep basically all day the last couple of days. One I was off, the other I called out cause I got too wasted the night before.

Shows have been somewhat slow. Did a few open mics on Sunday. First the Comedy Store was the most packed I've ever seen for the open mic. That crowd is so easy. I Well as long as the person was funny. There were a few people that bombed, one bombed worse than anyone I've seen in awhile. A very weird older man that tried to buy carpet from me at Home Depot who is also a comic was there. He has called the store a few times asking for me. He even asked me to pick him up to take me to dinner. I gave him a fake number. I somewhat feel bad but I panicked. He was there SUnday performing. My heart stopped and I definately didn't want him to see me. I told the host to bring me up as a different name but luckily he left before I went on stage.

After that I headed to the Blarney. Kinda sucks they made the energy boozes illegal. One of those was the perfect mix to get me comfortable on stage and give me a slight boost. Sunday I tried drinking some rum and 7 up and it made me a little too drunk. Blarney is the only place I really drink at, but I take it as my fun show, relaxing end of the week. I heckled a few people, nothing too bad just friendly jabs. One of the comics sent me a message that he'd prefer I never heckle again. Understood. I enjoy a good heckle now and again. My set was eh, nothing great. Just chatting with the crowd but no real big laughs.

Wednesday ws a bar show. I was slightly hesitant to do it, as the last time was the worst show I've done. This time they got rid of the pool table in the middle of the stage and there were actual audience members. Who knows if he can keep it up every week, but it was fun. I drank a little bit before we left. And we got 2 drink tickets, which turned into 6 as some nondrinking comics gave me there's. Me, no responsiblity, and free jager is not a good thing. I drank about 6 drinks in 30 minutes and wandered outside. I went over to my buddies house for about 5 minutes. Weird experience. Bought some fritos, and headed back to the show. I messed around with my roomies friend a bit. I woke up the next morning in my clothes with a slight headache. I rarely get hungover, but the fact I didn't drink enough water the night before and mixed a lot of alcohols, meant going to work was unlikely. I was still up at 7, but I didn't really want to face the people. Just layed in bed and played some poker. God I hope things turn around this week. Winston's tonight, well see how it goes. Not expecting much.

It's been awhile

So depression is in full force. Never been through a losing streak so long. Been playing pretty well, but the unluckiness is making me ill. I can't trust the sites and even live is torture. Went to Vegas, it was miserable. Saw the gal I dated for a little bit. She is a full blown alcoholic, smokes, loves her dogs, and isn't affectionate at all. I have no idea why I like her. She is one of the few girls I've had a connection with since the gf. She has let herself get rather big and I really not physically or mentally attracted to her but I like her for some reason. She took off one night which led me to stay up and play poker for 24 hours straight. I almost made all my money back and found a way to give it all back. I need to quit as depression is setting in hardcore. I keep saying I'm gonna quit drinking for this or that and it never happens. I'm in such a rutt, it's pathetic.

Anyways comedy has been good. Took a week off when I went to Vegas. It was weird getting back into it. Had a show in a small town south of L.A. It was a small crowd but they laughed at just about everything. It was a table of family members and a few other scattered people. Funny thing is it was mostly a few SD comic buds booked by an L.A. comic. He's a good dude. When we get there he says order whatever food or drink you want. After about one round the waitress says "You guys have maxed out your tab." The booker is like what, this never happens... Ok it's cool. He says order whatever he'll pick up the tab. I stop drinking, but the others continue to order. It ends up being $60 or so, which they pay back the $30 he paid us. I didn't throw in as I drove and it was close to $30 in gas money. My set went pretty ok. Been trying some new jokes, most went ok. It was a fun show, but wouldn't say I'd do it again.

Before I went up I had a phone call with one of my former "friends" in comedy. I've talked about how he guilted me off his show. I talked to him about it. He's such a robot, he just kept saying things to squash all the beef. I don't even care about getting on shows, just want to be asked. He's all business and could careless about a friendship and thinking about others. Sucks I won't be able to do the show while my parents are here, but that's their choice.

Wednesday I was suppose to do a small bar show, but I never heard back from the booker, and wanted to play poker. Bad idea, just ran like shit. The bad luck is so depressing. Anyways, last night I was at the Comedy Store. I should have tried harder to promote. There ended up being 80 or so people. I had 3 for me. Pretty sad how I can bring so few people. I'm usually funny everytime, and often do different jokes, but people just don't want to see me. I followed a newer dude we put on the show to help promote. He bombed pretty hard. I had a set in mind, but knew I had to start off strong. I did my rap joke, which killed. I then tried some smarter jokes that got some awwww's but no true laughs. I closed with the bit with my roommate. It went really well.

Tonight was Winston's. It was a small crowd but they were listening and laughing. I tried some newer jokes which mostly hit. Some of the awww jokes from last night got solid laughs. I really had fun at the show tonight, and found myself laughing more than usual. A lot of us hung out after the show. I enjoy the comradery that comes with OBC. There is one dude that is a pain in the butt that I can't wait til he leaves. Every week there's something new he wants. Tonight he whined to go up later. Other weeks he's whinned to go up earlier. Can't wait til he leaves, it will make the show even better

Two open mics with jokes

Did a few small shows. First Comedy Store. Was one of the smaller crowds I've seen there in awhile. There was a wide array of zanny comics on. One guy yelled at everyone, another guy danced with his feet, and one girl brought most of the crowd but displayed the worst 3 minutes I've ever watched. She covered her face in a beard, wore a jock strap, talked about hacky stuff. It was truly a train wreck. I don't get why everyone wants to try a gimmick and think comedy is easy. Anyways I got up there tried a few jokes that went subpar. Ended with announcing an upcoming show I have which was probably the only thing that hit. I tried chatting with the crowd with no response. Funny cause I went to the gym and came back, and the guy I tried to chat with said nothing to me, but must have had some booze in him cause he was chatting it up later in the show. Before I left I tried to chat it up with one of the dudes that guilted me off his show. As I'm approaching, I hear him inviting another lunatic comic. Ok then. I'm really thinking my comments on facebook has really affected me getting on shows. Comics are pathetic.

Next up was Blarney. I was pretty tired as I didn't get much sleep the night before, and worked all day. I was feeling a slight throat problem, but have been putting away the water, and think it's going away slowly. I usually have an engergy booze before I go to the show, but as they've been banned in S.D. I tried something else that did nothing. There was very few people. Maybe 10 noncomedians, with only 5 sitting in the front. There were a few comics that sat right in the front. Not sure why they'd do that. Most don't laugh and are just playing with their phones. I followed the dude I tried to talk to earlier. He went into this crazy character that he does on occasion thats just a rip off of someone else's joke. He even admits it. He went onto tell some jokes, then made a comment about me being bitter or something. Completely unwarranted and got zero laughs. My set was pretty low energy, but I stuck with my plan of doing jokes. Some went well, it's tough to gauge from such a small sample size, but I think some are solid. I was happy I did the jokes. I need to keep doing that.

Goodish shows

Did a few shows the past couple days. First was a somewhat pop in at the Comedy Store. One of the booker's told me he'd put me up the night before. I was somewhat worried when I got there as he wasn't there. Luckily they were running ahead of schedule which is extremely rare, like never happens. There was probably 100 or so people there, which is a good amount for a non promoted night. I wish Winston's could bring in 1/3 of that. Anyways I went up slightly nervous I think. That place is the only place I feel any nerves. I started off a little shakey, stumbled over a few words. I eventually got into my grove, started with some people. I even jumbled my final joke. It was a combo of not doing the joke often, chatting with the crowd, and my brain working ahead of itself. I felt pretty good after getting off stage. It would be so swell if I could do that 3 nights a week. I wouldn't feel pressured to crush everytime and could work on developing other/ newer jokes.

Last night was actually better than expected. There was maybe 12 audience members on top of the comics. One of the features brought zero people. Didn't thank me for the time, and just left. He won't be invited back. Anyways, the crowd was silent but unlike other shows they actually laughed and most of them came to the front. I tried a lot of newer jokes and felt comfortable up there. I did nearly 25 minutes which is cool as there was a lot of jokes I didn't do. I wrote out about half my jokes on a piece of paper and did maybe half of those ones. So thinking I can entertain for at least an hour at this point is pretty cool. The set was a combo of jokes and slight crowd banter. I think those in attendance enjoyed themselves, and got a few compliments. One from a gal who was amazingly beautiful, obv. there with her bf. My friend came. She usually only makes it to miserable shows. Luckily this wasn't terrible, not a great show by any means, but not embarassingly bad. Her friend and a dude were there seeing me for the first time. Not sure they had much fun as they left right after, oh well.

"You were the dirtiest one."

So after much thought I've decided to make the blog private. Few reasons, mostly because I'm tired of not getting on shows. Last night there was a show helped put on by two guys I brought to Maine. There was 15 comics on the show, it was a show that didn't need to be promoted, and they didn't ask me. I also asked them to be on their once a month show when my parents come to visit. At first they agreed, this week they called and basically pressured me into not doing the show. They booked me on a another show, which is self promoting. I understand the move to an extent, but I gave them an option to make up for my lack of promoting capabilities. They have now been removed from my show's email list. I probably should not be so petty but I'm so tired of being passed up for shows.

I joke a lot on facebook, asking for time etc. Completely kidding, but I've got asked to be on shows and also told I should stop doing it. 95% of San Diego comics have no sense of reality and are not funny people. They are not pleasurable to talk to in person and are all around jackasses. I joke around most of the time, in person and on facebook. Yes some of my comments can be considered mean or rude, but if you know me I'm totally kidding. I'm done dealing with lame comics who arn't funny and arn't going to do anything to help me. I posted on someone's wall, who wasn't even the show booker if I could get 7 minutes. A few days later I get a snide message from the booker saying I could get 7 minutes. Could he get 7 minutes on a show he knew he couldn't. Douchebag move, but I originally accepted. Then I decided I'd show support for my friend who was doing a show in L.A. I sent him a message saying I didn't feel comfortable taking time I wasn't asked to have. Instead of saying, ok cool. He went around to tell other people. Who in turn told my "friend." Pretty sad this kid is suppose to be one of my best friend's in comedy and he couldn't tell me who said it. He then lectured me for the first 30 minutes of the drive how I need to be nicer and stop writing rude comments on people's facebook walls. This really bothered me. It's like I can't trust anyone to just be relaxed and have fun. There's maybe 3 or 4 comics that are actually funny people. The rest are uptight lunnies. So embarassing the gossip that surrounds this town. I know L.A. is going to be the same thing, probably worse, but at least I'll be prepared to not trust anyone.

L.A. was somewhat cool. We had to pay $15 to get into the show. My "friend" said he'd talk to the booker about getting me time or at least get in free. He did neither. That also bothered me. He acts like I'm some monster in the scene, but I've helped him immensely. I truly don't do things for favors. But I've been doing Winston's for over a year now and I'd say I've gotten very few shows from it. Who knows why I don't get on shows. I finally feel like I'm making some headway at the Comedy Store. Plan is to keep hanging around in hopes of getting regular spots. I am respectful to all the guys there. Let's see if it pays off, or I'll feel screwed again. Last night as I was leaving I told the booker I'd be back tomorrow. He said if there's time at the end of the show he'd put me up. That's cool. We'll see.

So anyhow enough whining, I had a show last night. I didn't really know what to expect. I get there and it's basically a little bit larger than Blarney. I'd say this is a venue I excel in. Somewhat intimate with most of the crowd listening. I went up 3rd. I spoke to the crowd a little bit, after the initial, "Mclovin" yell. It's been awhile since I've heard that. I pretty much ignored it and continued. It was mostly older, dirty jokes with some crowd chatter. I had a coworker there with a date, were a lot alike, and somewhat feel we'd make a good couple. But then I see the guy she's on a date with and realize I'm probably not her type. Also the gal I spoke with after the show Saturday was also there, with another dude? She texted me this week, not really sure why. It's weird, pretty girls are fans of my comedy just not of me. Who knows. She texted me after the show saying I did well. Maybe I should still chat with her, as she did bring 5 or so people. I have to network somehow. Anyways my set went pretty solid. Didn't have the strong ending I had hoped but did about 15 minutes. A few people said I did well after, and the show promoter said a lot of people said I was their favorite one. That's cool. A guy after the show said you were good, "you were the dirtiest one." That came somewhat as a shock to me. I realize I talk about sex and whatnot, but I definately don't want to be labeled a dirty comic. I chatted with an older female comic, who I'm pretty sure is interested in more than my comedy. I can pull in the ones I'm not interested in for some reason. She said I did well but need to clean up my act if I really want to make it. Oh how my comedy's changed.