Still feeling it today

So I bombed. Not like whoa that was bad, more like holy cow I want to die. It's been awhile since I was affected so poorly from a bad set. I am still feeling crappy today, and couldn't even hang out after the show. It was my fault to a point, but I have to say I won't take all the blame. I filled in for the headliner as they cancelled a few days prior. I knew it was going to be a tough loud crowd so decided to bring my friend on stage for some guitar and place someone in the crowd to heckle. Well the guitar went well, but the heckle was awful.

I started off pretty good, then did some stuff with the guitar player. I then told one joke that went sour and I bailed on the set. I gave the heckle cue, and it was a nightmare from there. The crowd clearly thought it was real, and I couldn't save myself from the constant heckling. It started off ok, but she kept heckling and heckling, to the point I couldn't even do the show. The crowd was confused and lost and basically checked out. I couldn't save it. I tried jokes that usually do well, and they fell flat and resulted in heckles from people that weren't even scheduled.

Confidence is very important in comedy, and usually I have a lot of it. But last night turned out so poorly that I basically almost panicked and gave up. The fact I did 17 minutes with that environment hating me is the only thing I can be proud of. I need to plan things in future situations, and probably give people a heads up when enough is enough. A talent I have is to immediately be able to gauge whether something works and doesn't, last night it was clear the heckling was taking away from the show but it continued. It was my idea so I must take the blame, but I'm hoping this crappy feeling will go away soon.

What added to the awful experience was the fact the new lady was there and brought her roommate. It's bad enough to bomb, but in front of people you're trying to impress let alone hopefully will continue to see on a daily or so basis magnitudes the depression. All I can say is that she didn't walk out and leave and is still talking to me, for how long, who knows....