Death one card at a time....

So it's official I need to quit poker or I will certainly die young. I can honestly say either those sites are rigged or I am the unluckiest human on earth. Yesterday I played very well and made a decent amount of money. Today I played moderately well, and lost over and over and over again with the second best full house. It's pretty scary to be honest. So depressing. Just stare at the screen thinking, "Why me?" I could understand if I played bad or was drunk, but at this point that's not the case. I simply am an unlucky person. As I've spoke about I'm not a spiritual person, maybe this is what I get. But at the same time this has to be it. I need to come to the realization that no matter how much poker knowledge I have, no matter how many times I can get it in with the best hand, I will lose. It's demoralizing to think I am doomed to be miserable if I continue to play poker. I must stop, it will be my downfall if I continue. I wish I never learned how to play poker. Maybe like blackjack I've hit the wall. Maybe I can not win again. Someone is trying to tell me to stop. Hello L.A., as much as I hate you looks like I'll be seeing you soon.

Did the block party show on Saturday. It was raining in the morning and I was worried it would continue. Fortunately the rain went away. We headed over there and it looked pretty interesting. I checked in to see when I'll be performing. Seemed no one really knew. I was told I may go up sooner. I was open as I knew it was going to be brutal either way. I drank some beer and chatted it up with my friends, listened to the rappers. My friend was also suppose to go up but he backed out. He has funny jokes, but doesn't really interact with the crowd much and often gets nervous. I understand, I just like doing random gigs and testing myself. I ended up going after some rappers. I'd say I did ok. Just basically chatted with people, and then some old guy came walking by and he was interesting.

Last night I went to Blarney. There was a good amount of people there but most of them were not interested in hearing comics speak. I chatted with the crowd. Still not sure if that's ok to do at the show, but even when I tried to do jokes I got nothing out of it. Someone who I did talk to throughout the show said I was funny, so that's a plus. I brought a guy on stage and he spoke a bit, that's always entertaining.