Did I peak in San Diego?

Had a few shows, nothing huge worth noting. Friday at Winston's was somewhat busy. Had a dude that is nowhere ready to be up late promote the show. I think he brought a decent amount of people, but I wasn't even sure he was gonna make it. It was around 755 when he finally got there, saying "Did I miss it?" In retrospect I should have said yes as he got up there paced like a manaic and even made reference to the fact the only reason I put him up late is because he can bring people. I wish I had that luxury. There was a dude that went up earlier in the night that once again made a comment about me. Something to the affect of, "Give it up for your host Jeff, let him know, cause let's be honest Winston's is the only thing he has." I know he's attempting to joke, but it's just so out of left field. I mess with people a lot, and hope I don't come off so douchey. I just wonder what causes him to say things like that other than insecurities, but if he wants to dig himself a hole be my guest.

Had a couple guys come down from L.A. I'm trying to make connections up there as I'd like to make it up there eventually. Both of them said they'd send me some contact lists, neither came through. 2 of the 3 did thank me the next day for the time, but thank you's arn't helping me get anywhere. Chatted it up with one of the dudes who seems to get up almost every day. It appears comedy is his only gig, claiming most gigs pay him a little money, 20-40$. It would be nice to make some money here and there. Even $10.

My set was eh. I've actually been writing a lot and had a few new jokes I tried out. Both eh, but one I think can be reworked to be pretty good. I wrote it out last night and may try it tonight crowd dependant. I had a friend in town checking out the show and seeing me for the first time. It was a standard Winston's crowd, talkative and random laughing but all I can hear is the talking. A lot of times I was just watching his face and reactions. He's pretty political now so my little ha ha's arn't much for his intellectual mind. He actual loved an older comic that talks about Bin Laden and hating America, go figure.

Last night I did a couple open mics. Started my set by saying, "I'm Jeff Bilodeau and I'm here to save the show." It was playful and went over well. I wanted to try the new jokes, but the crowd was pretty tight and unresponsive so I didn't want to try it and see it fail. So I did some older jokes, and even they did hit huge but there was maybe 15 people there. When I was walking to my car after I saw a guy looking at me a few times, then he said "good set man." Like I've said before those things mean a lot. But the way I watched his body language he almost felt intimidated to say anything. That's really cool. I don't know what to do in those situations. I just said thanks man and kept walking. Should I shake his hand, hug him, kiss his girlfriend, who knows?

Next I returned to the Blarney Stone. Haven't been there in a few weeks, since the situation with the host. I'm pretty sure it's done, but the vibe seemed a little different there now. Not quite the fun, unpredicable spot it was before. Seemed more structured which is good and bad. I liked how before it felt like anything could happen, it was a good release after a stressful week of life and comedy. I felt a little weird, not sure if I can talk to people or not. Of course the stage Jeff showed up and right off the bat spoke to people. It was playful and nothing crazy. I did a 50/50 of jokes and crowd stuff. Mostly old jokes, didn't really take any chances. It was eh. I may have left a little before the light, but I got to the peak and got off. Thanked the host for the time, and asked him back to Winston's. I think he is a great guy, and solid comic so I'm hoping the misunderstanding is in the past. Ahhh, my quick judgement can cause problems.

Reason for the subject line. When I first started I felt I was getting put on a lot more shows. Maybe because a lot of my friends were the one's promoting but it seems like I've fell outside the loop of the promotional crowd. Whether it be I'm banned, or people have caught up to the fact I'm just not a great promoter. Maybe people don't think I'm funny, or think I truly am a dick. Who knows. There is a comic I see a lot of the same characteristics as myself. He's gotten pretty funny pretty quickly. He's getting on all the shows, even though he rarely plays kiss ass. I can't hate him for it. Maybe I need to reevaluate how I approach people. Not a fan of asking to be on shows, but whatever I'm doing now isn't working.

Well life stuff. Haven't played poker but did get fired from the poker show.... Kinda came out of nowhere as last week I felt too much pressure to bring excitement to the show now they want me off. No warning, just you're done. She called me the night before but I was at a show and couldn't answer. I texted her saying I had 5 minutes so said that would work. I called she didn't answer. I said the anticipation was killing me. She replied haha. Next day I get a cheerful call saying she decided I wasn't doing enough to be apart of the crew, but still wanted to be friends. I didn't question just said ok. She said she'd refund the $50 I PAID to be apart of the show. I texted her my address and asked her to not use me in any of the promos they used to send to potential sponsors. Not an unreasonable request I'd imagine. She said I was being unprofessional, and she'll keep the $50 for editing? Ok then pyscho. I emailed her later that night to ask for my money, no response. It's no real sweat as the show was terrible, but the principle of it all is not sitting well.