Honestly?

I'm not a religious man but I do believe that life speaks to me. I lost 640$ today. I won basically 3 hands in 5 hours. That's amazingly bad. I played pretty solid, just got ungodly unlucky. I made one move against a maniac that didn't pan out then I pretty much missed every thing. The last hand I lost with Kings when I flopped a set to a flush. The money literally means nothing to me, it's just crazy how bad streaks happen.
I try to think why God is doing this to me. Does he really want me to focus on bettering my career at Home Depot? I called out today, I woke up with an awful headache and really didn't want to face humans. I just don't know what to think.
Well I told some jokes at the Blarney Stone. I did ok. I need to get a new half hour from the time I headlined Winston's. I did some new jokes and they went ok. I like my jokes and they went pretty solid.