Holy bomb...

So I bombed last night for the first time in a little while, but what makes this bomb special is that I kind of enjoyed it. I would have stayed up there and continued to bomb but I felt bad for the people that booked me. The spot I did was a tiny bar, I had done it before and actually got booked for another gig from it. I knew this time was going to be awful as there was a maximum of 10 people there, and I followed a high energy dude that did at least 15 minutes. I didn't have the energy to try to win over the crowd. I'm not going to lie I went into planning to do crowd work, I felt somewhat confident from my set on Sunday. But this was a different crowd. They weren't drunk or loud they were simply small and boring. I know it's my job to be funny, but I have no desire to tell my jokes anymore. I am still disappointed with myself that I retorted to telling the Home depot joke. I wanted to embrace the bomb, but felt I needed some kind of laugh. I asked the crowd who they liked and someone said Brian Regan. That made me happy as he is a little known comic, but is amazing. I wonder how he would do in that environment.

I played some poker tournaments today online, did well, made like 400$ in an hour. I watched the first episode of the new last comic standing. I used to love that show, now I watch it and think really? That's what's funny? I dreamt a lot about my ex last night. I couldn't understand why until now. We used to watch the first season together. I used to love stand up even back then. I'd enjoy going to shows. I remember even then not laughing much but just enjoying the atmosphere. It's crazy to have met Dat Phan and seeing how he is as a person and on stage. I haven't seen much of the comics that were on that show, but they're probably doing something. What am I doing? Getting drunk by myself every night, still telling the same lame jokes I wrote a year ago. I lost the desire. I met my peak with comedy. I think poker is my true calling. I like telling jokes, but I think I really enjoyed the friendships I've made more. I was seriously thinking about moving home this year, but the comedy, mostly the people I met, kept me here. I think I need to take a break from comedy and really focus on poker. I have a passion for money. I know I'm funny, but the results are out of my control. I have a few shows in the next month or so that I am tied to, but I think after that it's time to make the move to Vegas and make poker my life.