Ugh.. I won't write what I want

So after advice from my lawyer I will not blog about the bs that happened last night. Cliff notes: I'm not good at being fake.
Winston's show was interesting last night. There was a huge crowd when I arrived. A comic asked me about getting on the show. He had never got up before. He said he had like 30 people coming. That usually means 10 or so. But at least 30 people were there. They were pretty attentive until he went on, then a lot of them started talking and leaving. I can't expect them to pay attention to a 3 hour show. He actaully did pretty good for his first time. It's always easy to make your friends laugh, but he genuinely had solid jokes.
I intended to go up twice, as I expected a good amount of the crowd to leave. Well like always people ran the light, host did a little too much time, and there wasn't time for me to go up again. Oh well. I don't need to go up. I enjoy comedy, but to say I want to grind away at comedy for another 3 years to be in a slightly better position than I am now would be false. I realize it won't happen overnight, but I hate the bs of comedy. I'm not gonna stab friends in the back to get on shows, and kiss people's asses. I do realize that is what you have to do, but I'm hoping being funny will prevail in the end. I know I'll eventually have to go up to L.A. to really make it in comedy, so all the being fake here probably helps for the present but really doesn't do much for the future. I want to keep being me for now.