Downswing over...

Well I finally ran well today, but you folks don't want to hear me be happy so I'll bitch for a second. There was a show tonight that had basically every San Diego comic that isn't a weekend regular at one of the comedy clubs. I really don't care that I wasn't on it, but it's kind of funny how little I get asked to be on shows. I heard the room is pretty terrible, and one of the guys that does that show is an uber douche but I just want to be asked. I want to have the option of saying no. I have a few random shows in June set up. It sucks because I love helping people out and giving out stage time. I have a show I was asked to be on, and want to suggest other people to be on it, but then I think, "Well would this person suggest me?" And the answer with basically all SD comics is no. I actually lost out on doing an L.A. show recently because I said I wanted to bring a fellow comic with me. The promoter said no, and I decided not to do it. I can't even get people to vouche for me in shows in this town. Whatever...
I did write two new jokes today that I am happy about. I am hoping for a decent show at Winston's tomorrow. I am hosting but hope to try the new jokes.
So after losing 250$ last week, and being down 250$ this week, I had a day of up 800$tonight. For about an hour or so I was hitting everything. I even folded a few hands that I would have won. I made a big bluff that was cool. Last night I played at a poker room I literally have never lost at. I started off making a huge bluff for a 500$ pot so I was quickly up. I then chipped up for awhile and turned my 300$ buy in into 750$. I then hit my daily fucked over hand. I flop a flush and an agro crazy player flopped a higher flush. Goodbye 350$ in 5 seconds. I then get unlucky in a few other spots, and end up even for the night, basically down 12$ but I'll say even.
When you are getting unlucky you try everything to figure out why. I alluded to having no women in my life. Well I did get a text from a girl I used to date last night, that didn't work out. But she is dating another dude. Got a text from a gal today who I used to work with but she also has a bf. A 3rd gal texted me. I never dated her, but I think she is swell. I also skipped something. I was suppose to get my oil change, but didn't go. Last time I made a bunch I called out of work. Maybe irresponsiblity is the key to good luck. Who knows.