Life of a gambler..

Well I've played poker the last 6 days straight. I always buy in for the max (300$). And bring an additional 40$ in case I need more. I don't rebuy and cap my daily losses at this. I have been playing at the same place a few nights a week and hadn't lost.

Saturday I was down to my last 70$, ran that all the way up to 600$ for a 250$ win. Then Sunday I played again before my show. I was pretty card dead then 20 minutes before I had to leave I caught a hot streak and ended up 350$.
Oh and the show went ok. It started at 7, which is early plus it was originaly slated to start at 8. It was a small crowd and I could see the sun set. I found myself continuously looking over there. I did my same lame jokes, got a few laughs. I then went over to another bar show. It's ok. It's nice to hang out with fellow comics and struggle through a tough crowd. The guy that went first gained a lot of my respect last week. He stood up to some comic who has a lot of pull at one of the San Diego clubs. I respect people who are real, and doing comedy to be funny, not screw people over.
Anyways he went up and some old lady yelled at him, said he wasn't funny and called him ugly. Sweet let's follow that. I get up there and break into some dry character. It was fun trying something different. I hacked one of my comic buddies jokes, it's funny, buy sadly I can't tell it. After the show I go home and have a few drinks, because frankly I'm a raging alcoholic. I wake up in the morning and decide I don't want to go to work. Basically I can't work more than 28 hours, because I've been working 40 every week since I started and the corporate offices said either they make me full time with benefits or cut me down to 28 hours. So I decided whatever I'm not going in. I end up going to play poker later that night. I made money pretty quick and turned my 300$ into 500$. I then had a big hand where I had aces, and resucked out on a guy. Kinda funny I won the 1000$ pot, and then the dude that lost and another dude (the same dude from last fight) started to fight. One got kicked out, the other basciall admitted he has ties to the mob or some other scary people. I ended up leaving up 750$.
I decided I wasn't going to drink for the next few days, as I had to work early and it's a good idea to slow down. So I work 9-6 then play poker. I played sub par, and end up getting my money in with a set vs a made flush. I don't get there, bye bye 350$. Same thing next day, work then poker. I got unlucky in a few spots, didn't play great, and then ended up losing another 350$. Today I worked 6-3, oh and I played poker til 2 AM the night before. I was a little tired but still no alcohol. I took a nap, went to the gym, then played more poker. I was pretty card dead but playing solid, just folding hand after hand. Then I wake up with 2's in the big blind. I flop a set, some lady had 4's and also flopped a set and took my 350$. Buh bye 1000$ in 3 days. I'm not a huge supersticious person, (or a good speller) but each day I wore a different t shirt and shoes. Now I think the only thing that's consistent with all the other days I won is that I drank the night before. What the f word is luck telling me that I can't win unless I drink alcohol. I mean clearly that has nothing to do with it, but kinda strange nonetheless.
I mean the pros and cons about not drinking. Cons I wake up every 30 minutes at night and clearly unlucky. Pros I wake up tired but not exhausted even though I'm on way less sleep, also I've been thinking of new jokes. I am excited about that as comedy has not been real appealing to me lately. I think I have a solid 5-10 new minutes from this week. Let's hope it works. I'm trying to stay away from dirty. That's all I've been doing lately and I don't want to be that kind of comic.