Had some shows, made some money

A lot of shows have been going on but it's all been a blur. Life stuff have been happening and I've been putting a lot of focus into that. Still battling the demons with alcohol and going back and forth if I want to rekindle things with the ex. I spoke with her a little bit the past few days. I guess she was sick. I'm not sure if she actually misses me or just needs someone to fill her time. I do honestly want to give it one more shot if I do it completely sober. I think it will be good for me to test myself to see if I actually could not drink. Plus I could know for sure we are not right for one another. I'm trying, but I'm not pushing the issue. I'm also talking to a couple other girls and actually been hanging with one. Things have been getting somewhat serious. It's with the Vegas girl that I've always felt like I had some kind of connection with. Problem is she smokes, and has put on a few pounds. And I'm going back and forth if this is someone I could openly date. I do like her, and she likes me. And that should be enough. But, there's also the idea that I think our lives would spiral down an unhealthy alcoholic path. She is very much like me. She finds me funny, like really funny. That is great. We have great conversations. I don't know what I'll do in the end. I know if I get back with the ex it will kill any chance with the new girl. Also, if I pursue the new girl that will end things with the ex. I think I'd have a better, more successful future with the ex. But in the present, I know the better decision would be to focus and allow myself to like the new girl. Who knows. I do want to clean up the drinking, and know with the new girl that may never happen. Comedy's been a roller coaster. Been getting frustrated with some people at the Comedy Store, and watching unfunny people get big laughs from the audience. I've been having some good sets. I did 15 minutes at the Store Thursday. I did about 13 and couldn't think where I wanted to go next. i had plan to do a new set but the crowd was so rowdy I chose to just do my set. It went well and I had some fun interactions with the crowd. Friday at Winston's I told a few stories about one night stands and when I thought I was gonna overdose on weed. Had a guy come up to me after to say I was funny which is always nice. Were kicking off a new contest this Wednesday. This will be the 8th one. Well be moving to Thursdays starting in December. I think this may help. We had hoped the Street Fair would help draw in more people but sadly that was only the case one or two weeks. I think Winston's could do a better job promoting the show, but what can you do. We have the finals of the next one this Friday. I'm expecting it to be busy. It's great cause the prize money is already taken care of, so I should get a majority of the door. Had a pretty profitable week and I'm hoping that will continue for the rest of the year. None of the Store people got to technically open the last few weeks. Last week there was a gaggle of young, in my mind horrible comics. It was painful to watch. I'm getting frustrated that maybe this dream may never happen. The comic last night had a great stage presence. His jokes weren't amazing, but he definitely sold them like they were. He repeated the premise by yelling which I thought was interesting. He hung out, and took pictures after which I thought was cool. I'm getting so tired of how they treat the door guys. Like were pee ons, deserving of nothing. Even the door guy that serves once in awhile gets treated much better. I don't know if they just look down at us just because we want to do comedy or what it is. Very frustrating. Tuesday I headlined the open mic at ACC. The owner who normally talks to me didn't say a word. He''s likely pissed I haven't hit him up for weekend spots. He is a shady dude and cancelled a show just because people only brought 24 humans. Just bad business. I've been doing a little day drinking this week, so I had one beer before I went on stage and felt a little tipsy. I was just messing around on stage and felt I was funny enough.