God damn poker

So rediculous how bad I'm running lately. It's so insane. I get coolered nonstop, and whenever I actually have anything no one else does. Played tourney's during the day, lost about $100. Couldn't sleep so player about 1200 hands in 3 hours only to lose another $400. I officially can not trust that site. I won 1 of 4 flips, and the only one I won was for a small pot. I'm down probably $3000 in the past couple months. I've never gone through a downswing like this. I have the next 5 days off, and have $400 more dollars to lose. Once that's gone I can't play until March. It's so depressing it sucks the life out of me. I didn't drink last night for the first time in a long time. I didn't sleep at all. Went to sleep maybe at 4:30 but woke up every ten minutes before my alarm went off at 5:30. I did sleep basically all day the last couple of days. One I was off, the other I called out cause I got too wasted the night before.

Shows have been somewhat slow. Did a few open mics on Sunday. First the Comedy Store was the most packed I've ever seen for the open mic. That crowd is so easy. I Well as long as the person was funny. There were a few people that bombed, one bombed worse than anyone I've seen in awhile. A very weird older man that tried to buy carpet from me at Home Depot who is also a comic was there. He has called the store a few times asking for me. He even asked me to pick him up to take me to dinner. I gave him a fake number. I somewhat feel bad but I panicked. He was there SUnday performing. My heart stopped and I definately didn't want him to see me. I told the host to bring me up as a different name but luckily he left before I went on stage.

After that I headed to the Blarney. Kinda sucks they made the energy boozes illegal. One of those was the perfect mix to get me comfortable on stage and give me a slight boost. Sunday I tried drinking some rum and 7 up and it made me a little too drunk. Blarney is the only place I really drink at, but I take it as my fun show, relaxing end of the week. I heckled a few people, nothing too bad just friendly jabs. One of the comics sent me a message that he'd prefer I never heckle again. Understood. I enjoy a good heckle now and again. My set was eh, nothing great. Just chatting with the crowd but no real big laughs.

Wednesday ws a bar show. I was slightly hesitant to do it, as the last time was the worst show I've done. This time they got rid of the pool table in the middle of the stage and there were actual audience members. Who knows if he can keep it up every week, but it was fun. I drank a little bit before we left. And we got 2 drink tickets, which turned into 6 as some nondrinking comics gave me there's. Me, no responsiblity, and free jager is not a good thing. I drank about 6 drinks in 30 minutes and wandered outside. I went over to my buddies house for about 5 minutes. Weird experience. Bought some fritos, and headed back to the show. I messed around with my roomies friend a bit. I woke up the next morning in my clothes with a slight headache. I rarely get hungover, but the fact I didn't drink enough water the night before and mixed a lot of alcohols, meant going to work was unlikely. I was still up at 7, but I didn't really want to face the people. Just layed in bed and played some poker. God I hope things turn around this week. Winston's tonight, well see how it goes. Not expecting much.