Trust your gut

So we had a show last night at Winston's. I knew we probably should not have had one, but we did anyways. There was very few comics there, and an even smaller crowd. I decided to try raffling names to mix it up. I gave a comic who is about 75 but there every week the opportunity to headline. He was really excited, and although he is not that funny, he's there every week and why not give him a chance. It feels good to do nice things for people at times, who cares what other people think.

I was able to voice out a few jokes, I knew they wouldn't go over well as it was a tough sell I simply wanted to get them out. It's always tough telling jokes when you're the host because everyone just wants you to move onto the next comic. I battled through the night and made a few dollars. It's cool making a little bit of money here and there from comedy, esp. considering my job is cutting my hours down to 3 days a week. I need to start looking for a new job. I think about how cool it would be if I had all the good things in my life at one time.

It's so pathetic that I still think about my ex basically daily. We broke up over 3 years ago, and she is married to another dude. I know we weren't right for each other, but the fact I haven't found onbe girl since then that I'd even want to call my gf is so draining. I meet a girl, I think she's the right one, a week later it's done. San Diego girls are so shady. I have no clue why you'd give someone your number if you're not interested. I guess I'm too honest for my own good.