Made a few bucks

Still bummed and confused about what happened Monday. Could have really used the $1000 or at least $200 to get a new laptop and the much needed blood tests. I need to get back on track and retake my life. I don't want to struggle my entire life battling with alcoholism. It scares me a little bit. I go back and forth whether I could quit if needed. I believe I could, I simply don't want to. I imagine that's what all alcoholics think. I'm definitely a functioning alcoholic, but drinking every night can't be healthy to say the least. Wednesday was very busy at Winston's. Everyone did well and that was exciting. There was, going back to the open mic, 4 straight women that performed. Not against female comics at all, but I normally space them out as there just isn't a lot of them. The 3 female comics and one gay comic advanced. They just installed a new window that I think has been drawing in a few more random people. After that I went to Bar 11. I was a little drunk and had a hard time on stage. I got some laughs, but struggled and did the worst on the show. Thursday was the Comedy Store. I went up in a prime spot. The manager gave me a little extra time. I was going to mess around but I wanted to keep the show going esp. as I was doing 10 minutes. I'm getting somewhat tired of my jokes. I've been trying to write more, getting tired of my jokes. The weekend headliner popped in. I felt I held my own against him. Friday was Winston's. There was already people there when I arrived. It was a good crowd throughout the night. Some people struggled, but overall if the comic was funny, the crowd laughed. Made a few bucks, which is nice. Saturday was working at the Store. The headliners were old school. Have there sets they've been doing for 15 years and don't mix it up. Just long, hacky stories. The first crowd was the best I've seen in there since I started working there. A girl I used to date showed up with her new fiance. I'm fine with it, although I miss the sex. She was so intense, it was nuts. I had hoped to go up, but one of the headliners brought a friend who opened both shows. She was meh. She even did well the first show. They invited us to perform on their Belly Room shows any Monday we wanted. I have to make it up there at some point.