Trouble on the home front

No real stories to report. I thought of a joke called white people vs crackas which I thought was a funny concept but had no idea whether it would work on stage. It hit pretty hard at Winston's, but that is a mostly comics crowd so who knows if it would work at the Store. I took a trip to San Luis Opisbo. That was a nice area. Did a lot of drinking, but didn't really get drunk. Did some wine tasting, ate some oysters, which gave me some of the worst spelling farts I've ever had. Haven't been around the Store over the past week or so. Was supposed to do the ACC last night. But was physically ill. Ex-gf told me 30 minutes before the show that she was kissed by another guy the night before. Granted they were drunk, and he supposedily kissed her, but I am not sure what to do. Things have been pretty bad the past few months, and I've been contemplating leaving before this happened regardless. She seems to think we can make it work, but I doubt that will come true. This brings me back to what happened with the ex. Things were never the same. The trust is gone, and I will never look at her the same way again. I was looking forward to doing the ACC show for awhile as it had my good comedy friends on. I vommited in the toilet and knew that I couldn't go up. Worst part is I left and walked around for 45 minutes to try to find my car. Only to find out it was a block up from the club. I even drove down the wrong way on a one way street. My brain was blank. I want to get back on stage immediately, but I don't know if I can.