I'm not funny

WOW, last night was awful. I guess I am not funny. People were talking the whole time, and my jokes were awful. I probably got a little too drunk which is crazy because I only had one beer. I stumbled a few times, god it was so brutal.

It sucks to think I'm getting worse, and more akward. Everyone tells me I need to be confident on stage. Kind of tough when you're doing horrible. What an awful show. I knew it was bad, and then I watched it and it was even worse.

I had to make up an excuse to get out of work, which was lame. Then I felt so miserable and hung over I called out today. My life direction is so messed up.

Oh and to make the night even worse, the guy that booked me told me on Tuesday to bring my "A" material. And then as I was bombing told another comic, "I told him to bring his "A" material." So lame and stupid to say. I didn't watch his set, but some people in the audience did not enjoy him. He was about to cut me off when I saw the host what appeared to be signing to cut me off. I just stopped as I was miserable anyways.

Im thinking about quitting comedy, its so political. I just want to make some jokes and eventually get paid for doing so. It seems like I need to work for years just to get stage time. So lame.
Here's the video, try not to cry.